Thirty Things

This was originally a Facebook note, one that your supposed to write and then tag yourself and a certain amount of friends in, but I think I shall post it here. Also rather than posting things I don't think you know I'd rather post things I find important to know about me.

1) I am deeply and terribly in love. I meet him my sophomore year in high school and always thought he would be completely unobtainable, but I am happy to say he is mine. I wouldn't trade him or our relationship for the world.

2) I love books. All kinds. Not just Jane Austen or Shakespeare, but also even random bits of teen fiction. Not drama series per say but books like Dog On It and other such novels.

3) I hate it when I'm debating with someone and the tell me I'm "close minded" for not seeing things the way they do. Everything I believe is supported by logic and fact and I promise you I have researched it, If I haven't I would not be stating an opposing opinion. You not liking the fact that I don't agree with you does not make me close minded.

4) I love all things geeky. Even if I don't understand it all I love the sub-culture and the people in it. And once I do understand something I typically love it.

5) I have a 0 tolerance policy on all drugs. Argue it all you want but from personal experience with people around me I have never seen it end well.

6) I don't like school. Not because I don't like learning but because I hate the system in which it bases your value in the work force and life based on tests and quizzes and homework assignments.

7) I cant spell and you can correct me and call me stupid all you want, someone once told Shakespeare "if you cannot spell a word in 3 different ways then you are an idiot." I suppose I am just more creative at spelling than others.

8) I hate it when people thing its "ballsy" or "courageous" to not care. I find quite the opposite applies in almost all circumstances. Dont you?

9) I just tried a spiced pumpkin cupcake. It was delicious. And I'd like to know where to get more.

10) As you may be able to tell by my title, I love alliteration.

11) I think Im a fairly creative individual. No I do not play an instrument but I dont think my musical literacy should determine my artistic worth.

12) I love all kinds of music. I really mean that. everything from country, to folk, to "scream'o" I love it all.

13) Coffee, and Chocolate. Thats all you need to make me happy.

14) I enjoy things like facebook and my blog and texting but if you want to really get to know me call me up, lets have coffee. I know a fantastic shop on the corner of elm and Somonauk.

15) I love any number divisible by 3 I dont know why I just do.

16) Im also afraid that if I fill my car up at a gas pump who's number is not divisible by three, something tragic Will happen.

17) I love my nieces, however I dont really like a lot of my family. It doesn't seem like their doing much with their lives at all.

18) I hope to get married someday, Preferably when Im 21 and preferably to Austin Allen.

19) I dont go to church anymore. I cant even begin to tell you how confused and distoreted my religious views may be, but what it all comes down to is that I dont know. I dont want to state for certain something I dont know.

20) Regardless of my religious views I love mission trips. I love to help people and frankly if I did nothing else the rest of my life I would be a happy woman.

21) I am writing this from Austin's apartment which these days feels more like home than my real one.

22) I'm really only doing this because I need to write a little before I can start on school work to get my mind going.

23) I love to go out some nights, but I also reallly love nothing more than popping a pizza in the oven and watching hitchhickers guide to the galaxy with my one and only.

24) Christmas is coming up and I am all too in the mood. If I had the money I would buy everyone a chirstmas present.

25) I really dislike the song "stuck like glue" by sugar land. It always gets stuck in my head and wont get out. Hatta agrees with me.

26) I love hockey but Id rather see it live than watch it on the TV.

27) I am a procrastinator like you wouldnt belive. Preatty much everything is more importatnt to me than school.

28) I have a lot of self image issues. I would really like to loose about 20lbs. and have instantly clear skin.

29) I am very politicaly conservative, and verry politcaly involved.

30) Its time to do that Biology I've been putting off... You are beautiful and I love you.

Love I suppose...

Hi... remember me?

What happened? I mean honestly, we use to be so close, you use to make me feel like I was your world and then some, but now? We bicker over every little thing. I wonder if the only reason I keep pushing the issue is because I feel the need to prove to you that I'm still alive? Although the things we fight about do really upset me...

Why cant you just start to see things from my point of view? Then again, why am I so stubborn about seeing yours? I really should work on that...

I dont even think I honestly care about the outcome anymore, could you just hold me? Thats all I really want.

I miss the little things you would do. The little text messages or e-mails that made me feel so special. I know you still love me, and I know you do so much, I dont mean to sound ungrateful, I just miss feeling like the most important thing to you. I know you have school, and thats your number one, but I wouldn't mind even being tied for number 2? Maybe even 3? 6? 9? You've said thats unrealistic, but I seem to get along quite fine...

Remember our summer? Captured in loving and tender moments, going out to eat, carnivals, seeing friends, time spent with family, staying up till 4am and being so in love. We never use to fight. Why does it seem like we cant go a week without something that upsets us? To much time together? but time apart drives us crazy...

I wish somehow this was simple. I wish that we were that couple that everyone thinks we are. What happened to that? I suppose everyone goes through it though....

However here is what I know. Every moment spent with you is a blessing in so many ways, You are my best friend and so much more. I love you. Almost everything about you, except the things that have potential to harm you. I love that silly little laugh you have when you think something is cute, I love the way you look at me with those big green eyes. I love it when you are the one who reaches for my hand, or when you send me a text just to say, "I love you" I love it when you get really excited about something I dont understand, then you try to calmly put it into words I can understand. I love that your not afraid of who you are and the things you like. I love your laid back approach on things, and how passionate you are about others. I love the way you care about people, even though Im not so sure that you notice yourself, and this is not even the tip of the iceberg of all the things I love about you. However my favorite thing about the things I love about you? That I get to love you and you love me in return, and that I hope with all my heart that love is enough.